Hey, you here to stay?
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Sing a sad song just to turn it around
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Free-falling
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
Adidas running shoes, to buy or not to buy?
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Nocturnal
Friday, February 20, 2009
Superhuman
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I miss watching Nickelodeon ):
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
&my world keeps spinning round
Thursday, February 12, 2009
&I wanna be free so you let me fly
My mood goes down with the Sun
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Feel you breathing
Monday, February 9, 2009
Im not fine at all.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
DAMN CRAMPS
Friday, February 6, 2009
&it seems like everyone feels the same way tonight
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Clear the air
Monday, February 2, 2009
Pause
Sunday, February 1, 2009
HELLO PEOPLE OF THE EARTH
Ok I cant stop smiling/laughing at the slightest thing &I dont know why. This is retarded but I like (:
After effect from reading some blogs perhaps? So reminds me of the days I had few years back. Missed them somehow yet, somehow not. But I must admit those days were pretty fun.
Ytd was not too bad (: &Jes called at 12am? and we chatted quite a bit. See you tmr dearest(:
For the first time in many days I FINALLY HAD A DREAMLESS NIGHT. :D You dont know how annoying and scary my dreams for the past few days were.
One of them involved this crazy ass women locking me up in one of the rooms of her mega huge house (She was planning to murder and eat me up!!) I was using the only source I could find; Internet, to SOS to someone. I feel my heart dropping out any moment as I tried my best to SOS cos if she finds out I'll surely die. &the house is tooo freaking huge I've no idea how to escape. Panicked, scared, terrified whatever negative feelings you name it.
Then came this dream which I encounter a guy committing suicide from a airplane. Like I was there with a few others(dont rmb who) at this huge field &a plane was in the blue blue sky within our sight. Suddenly I heard a girl shouted "NO DONTTTT DO IT"(from the plane) The very next moment I saw a guy jump off the plane and he died, obviously. You CANNOT imagine how scared+horrified I was, seeing someone commit suicide. You'll never know how horrible I felt I think I breakdown in the dream trying to find someone to confide in.
Ok I cant remember the last dream which was the 1st nightmare that started off this whole thing. And Im glad I cant remember.
So ytd was also the only night in many nights that I fall asleep like a normal human being at 2am instead of 7am. BUT, I woke up at 6am to pee and couldnt get back to sleep till 7ish am. Woke up at 12ish pm just now and have been staring at my laptop since. Ok you who's reading this while acting to look serious hahahaha, back to work! (:
I should be off to prepare, heading to school later. Im craving for Mensa's pork fillet! Im waiting for your text EugeneTng.
3:44 PM;
A day out with this bitch above. All I remember of us doing was eating, eating and eating. All her fault, influenced my stomach to be hungry.
Initially was supposed to meet her at 2pm which both of us overslept ha ha ha. So met at 5pm instead and it was raining cats and dogs. Pouring like mad and the lighting was super scary!
Headed town, lucky for us it was only drizzling when we reached. I cant imagine us roaming ard town when it's pouring I'll just go crazy.
Got my watch fixed, and it looks damn weird now but at least I can start using it again(: It's a little ex though. Ah well. Zara-ed for damn long &we both walk out w a Zara bag. So much for living on budget. ZXZX. Anw she was being such a bitch cos she kept complaining TSK.
Her "Walao you make my blood boils pls!"
Me " &you're making me moodswing like mad!"
One moment we were shouting, the next we were laughing and then complaining and maybe some nagging and back to laughing. Pardon us, we're weird like that :D
Had dinner at Far East chicken rice then dessert after, her treat. Thanks Bitch! (:
Headed for "He's just not that into you" where we had totally-kanna-scammed-popcorn and drink. Their new popcorn is so ewww but we ate it anyway cos our mouths were itching to bite some food. It was a great show I must say. Much laughters inbetween the whole flick &it makes you go AWWWW at the ending. I'd give it 4 stars!
After the movie, that bitch complained that shes hungry AGAIN. (If you realised we've been eating non-stop hits.) Got her Gloria Jeans coffee which was being thrown into the trashbin with 3/4 filled. It sucks, seriously.
Train ended their service so bus back from town to kovan where we had the famous Punggol Nasi. (Eat againnn) I think if I were to hang out with her everyday for a month, living a lifestyle like this, I'd probably hit my desired weight!
Oh yes, this drink stall uncle at the Punggol Nasi is totally into my bitch pls, like interested like mad. Like wanna treat her eat alll then keep talking to her. Like, wth. &I kept teasing her bout it hahhaha and she threatened to throw her huge chicken drumstick at me. But he's like so weird keep checking on her and ask if she want more food all and he was like already fishing money out from his pocket(!!!) But yea, we stopped him in time. Oh and he asked me to give my food to her, WTH. But this whole episode is damn funny! Hahahaha.
Anywayyyy enough of dramamama. Cabbed home after having satisfied her hunger, and mine.
So there you go, a day filled with food and fun and food and laughters and food and food and food. Ok time check 3:22AM. Shall sleep after I wash up and maybe wake up earlier for a run when the sun is up. Sounds good ay?(:
3:23 AM;
&I was supposed to be in bed hours ago. But I just cant seems to fall asleep.
Endless familiar songs being played on the stereo one after the other. Thousand and one thoughts fill my mind as I allow myself to free-fall into this never ending vacuum. Some people get lost on their journey, some found their way out, and some, just wish to be never found. Maybe He will show me the way, I just have to ask. Right? Dear God, please show me the way.
The clock continues to ticked by, time never waits. And once again it's near 6am. The words I gave about sleeping early certainly are not coming true.
Enough of black and white, red and black. Lights out, blanket on people. Have fun in your dreams. Cos sometimes the reality hurts a little too much.
Goodnight.
5:51 AM;
Hello wello pillow? Haha.
Went to get my running shoes just now! I think it's my first pair know, wait maybe second. So lets all say wheeeeeee.
Anyway, yknow sometimes you somehow spoilt your own day sort of thing. Yea. ):
Here's my 2nd pair of running shoe.
Ok. The photo do no justice to it. It's nicer in real life. Yah-low yah-low.
Should start practicing the art of leading a Healthy Lifestyle yo.
Oh I saw Benchow &Yuting just now and she said Im becoming more like an ahlian): Not at all please.
Heading out with Bitch tmr. Im gonna get my watch fix and she's gonna get her Indian watch HAHA.
I think I should start setting some personal goals in life. Like something larger than life. *ReflectionTime. Emomomo madness. SIGH.
I shall strive to sleep earlier today cos I slept at 6am again. *smack forehead.
11:55 PM;
Went tanning @ sk swimming comp ytd . Great sun great company(:
Heard the worst pick up line.
"Hey are you Claire?" (In chinese)
"No?"
"Oh you look like her" (In chinese again)
"Orh" *all ready to walk off
"Oh Matthew"
*Nod head. Ready to walk offfffff again
"&you are?"
Walaoeh. Then blah blah blahhh talk bout he's some photographer all, modelling all, photoshoots all.
"Namecard?"
"No need lah Msn or contact no. can alr"
"Not interested."
Finally only left us after we say another of our friend still in toilet. He was there to shoot photographs for some swimming events. Maybe he IS reallyy one photographer for those modelling company but the pick up line/the way he communicate could be better and MAYBE he'd be able to talk me through the modelling thingyyy. Then again, maybe not.
ANYWAY. Mr. Sun was damn good to us, it was hidden until we found a spot! Swim a bit too. &slide was fun hahah Ai was damnn funny with her "AHHHHHHH" while we were going down the open top slide hahahahahhha I literally burst out laughing on the slide while gg down. After that I kept teasing her bout it like "Ahhhhh!" Then we would burst out laughing :D
Photos for you.
Kids pool
Dark clouds formed when we were leavingg.
Damn fun slide.
12:56 AM;
I think for the past 1 week Ive been sleeping at like timing which people are waking up e.g. between 7am-10am. Then I'll wake up between 4-6pm.
My bio-clock is totally screwed up because I cant seems to fall asleep before those timing. Even when I reached home from chalet after not sleeping for 1 day I still stayed awake for 2 hours till 1030AM or so before I fall asleep know.
This is so unhealthy, Im becoming more and more like a panda each day. ): Meow.
Im gg to sleeep soon. Time check; 5:52AM, 8 minutes to 0600. Good Night/Morning! (whichever applies to you)
5:52 AM;
Back from 2M04 chalet! It was definately better than the last yo :D Except that not all were here likeeee Melinda who was sick, some who only came for a while cos of work, family all, and some who didnt bother maybe? Lalala.
The above photo was taken this morning 630AM or smt. We're the only few survivors who were still awakeeee minus Calvin cos he just woke up so that left you with Chariot, Eug and Me. Woo, Champions :D
So we took thousand and one photos. Day 1; Cheryl's cam. Day 2; My stupid sot cam which low batt one moment and full batt the next. So its like I have to off and let the cam rest for a while. Need to find my spare batt soon, this batt is totally screwed up. Full album will probably be uploaded on fb, as usual. By next week or smt. Too much photos yo.
I didnt know Day 1 was BBQ pls. But its ok, cos the 3D 2N was fun max! It's probably the longest while since I ever stayed throughout a chalet without going home. I didnt thought I would miss this bunch of jokers so much knoww. But knowing that we will not be in the same class next year definately saddens me somehow): OH WELL. Lifeeeeee.
Ok Im heading out soon after 7 odd hours of sleep. STUDY HARD for those who are still mugging for the papers next week! &PLAY HARD for those who are done with school just like me! :D
9:45 PM;
OK, SOMEBODY SHOULD JUST SMACK MY HEAD. NOW.
Because.......
It's 455AM and Im still here, NOT sleeping. No wonder Im not recoveringgggg GAHHH.
I spend my dayyyyyyy sleeping again. :/ Dinner @ KFC with Mummy.
Gotta wake up early tmr like 930AM, that leaves me with 4hours plus of sleepp. The thought of it makes me tired already zzz. But Im happy cos Im finally going to collect my bagg tmr! I meant, later! Hopefully it turns out right. Yknow how online shopping is like.
&Shoutout to Twinnnnnn! Im sure things will work out fine. Like yknow the chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi. Ok my hanyupingyin sucks though I had distinction for my Chinese(hawhaw). But yah thats beside the point. CHEER UP TWINNY! And lodge complain(!!)
Im heading for 2M04 chalet later! AYES. Its like so many people are sick so I told Alvin "Its gonna be a chalet for the sick" Haha. Get well soon everyone, SEE YOU THERE!
I just realised, I HAVEN PACK MY BAGGGG.
5:04 AM;
Gave those to my dearest 04clique/projmates for vday.
I should seriously STOP sleeping so late now that school's done for me. I was just visiting sites and before I know it, the numbers on the bottom right hand corner of my screen reads "4:15 AM"
So, when did I last dropped an entry here?
Friday; Head out with Ai for a day of fun singing out lungs out for 4 hours! OH YA I CAN WALK PROPERLY ALREADY YO. :D Anw, we sanggggggggg like mad that day. Caught Benjamin Buttons in the evening with J, it was quite meaningful but a lil draggyyy luh I kept yawning inbetween. Dinner and then slackedddd somewhere where I saw a mini frog.
Saturday; Valentine Day. The streets are infested with couples. This year I received really nice gifts which warm my heart from that few dear ones(: You dont know how thankful I am to have them.
Anyway, the grp of us headed Vivo for dinner forgetting that its V day woahhh crowded. Anw after which hang around with dearest Ai tillllllllll damn late/early? We had our share of fun and laughters, seriously. Love you Ai(: Must plan properly next time round!
Sunday; I slept my breakfast and lunch through. Ikea for dinner, thanks (: Bought damn nice star light! One for me and one for Mummy as her Vday gift! (: If you've yet to realise, Im a sucker for Stars. :D
Today was spend sleeping my day awayyyyyyyy cos Im unwell. Have been uploading photos on FB, it takes super long please. My throat is damn dry. Im gonna sleeep once fb's done uploading this album.
2M04 CHALET WED TO FRI, EXCITING MUCH.
4:38 AM;
Wanted to post CNY's photo but walaoeh A LOT. So not today.
Out with Twinny today and yay we took damn lots of photos. HURRY BATHE AND SEND ME TWINNY.
Dhoby, Cathay, Cine for Bride's War was quite good, met ChaiPeng there too, Marina Sq, Esplanade, Starbucks, Clark Quey, Home. (:
SL meeting in school tmr.
My weak stomach is giving me problems again TSK.
11:27 PM;
Have been listening to songs and singing them to myself.
Head out with Jes today yea I mean Wedesday, combed the whole town and went to a disappointing Bugis. Seriously what happened to Bugis! Its so not Bugis anymore. If you were there you'd see the disppointed faces of Jes and me.
Oh before that the rain part was funny it reminds me of "The Day After Tomorrow" Like we saw that quite a distance away from us, the rain was damn heavy so we decided to take a bus instead of walking to PS(Fyi, we're at Heeren) We were only probably 20 steps away from the bus stop then suddenly the rain started spreading from that far away place like DAMN COOL so we had to run but got a lil wet though. But I think the scene's so cool how the rain spread this way. When we reach the bus stop it was practically pouringg. (Like within how many seconds only)
Dinner @ KFC. Free ride home from John, thankssss. I swear they're funny. &John's sense direction a bit hahaha.
Bought a few stuff today. Like bought a flats after so longgg. Jes had more buys, like if she lost that bag she's holding she'll probably kill herself.
Hanging out with Twinny tomorrow. &its 3am im still awake. Shall sleep soon.
I just realised I haven post my CNY photos up. Damn slow. SOON.
3:06 AM;
On Monday; A&P Paper! (LAST PAPER!! SHIOKNESS PLS) 04Clique went Ikea for dinner yo cos Mingli drove that day :) Poached Salmon!
Tuesday; Comm sk 2 Interview! &IM SO DONE AND OVER WITH SCHOOL NO MORE PAPER WHATSOEVER YAY. COL was uh hahahaha. Cheer up M we all know __ is a __.(Look at our photo & smile!!)
Went library to watch Sixth Sense & Zetten dinner thereafter. Played T/D, some photos shall NOT be uploadeddd due to copyrighted issues haha. My calf still makes me limppppp.):
Ok damn no mood. Im off to breathe the air of freedom, sounds sweet. Sounds..
SIGH. Time to find myself.
3:06 AM;
If you could see inside me, you would know.
Im sorry for every single thing, but its probably not good enough a reason.
I guess Im never good with words, &I wished I was so I can express my thoughts better.
Every song that is being played sounds as if you were the one singing them.
Im sorry, but "I dont know" is probably the best string of words I can come up with, for now.
(PLEASE DONT ask me about this, I'll appreciate it.)
4:13 AM;
Dinner @ Ikea w Jes on Friday was good, I ate my favourite poached salmon &a dessert recommended by her. Enjoyed her company for that whole day very much. On the very same day, Im over and done with for my second last paper. Fyi, I did the paper within 20mins.
Ive been getting very bad cramps on my right leg lately. They say its the lack of salt in my body. From thigh to calf to foot. Every time it happens, it'll be so pain that I cant even mouth anything. The last one was the worst, cos till now, I cant walk properly, it hurts too much. Im limping my way around everywhere &I hop down steps cos walking down steps is just too much pain.
Due to the reason above, I skipped service ytd. You'll probably see me limping around the campus tomorrow.
Emotional or physical pain. I guess majority would opt for the latter, no?
"I want a simple explanation
For what Im feeling inside
Gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out"
-Thunder
5:26 PM;
Headed out to school in the morning to print some stuff from lab. Then CS coffee bean w Alvinkho and hear his emo life haha. He bought us both Large Beiguim Choc which we both didnt manage to finished. Damn big cup pls. &Im damn sick of choco after drinking 4/5 of it.
Went back sch at 4 and had early dinner at Mensa, thanks Curly and Eug for the company. Over to Bizpark to study a lil of RM, or rather read through then off for Zetten dinner.
Eug was late so waited for him and didnt get any dinner cos was feeling damn unwelll. Since morning. So anw, headed to Sports Com. &some stuff that were discussed got me reflecting upon myself though I was half too unwell to concentrate. Thoughts did hit me. Rested there till 9plus then left when I was feeling a tad bit better.
Dinner opposite sch w Eug cos gastric was catching up. Waited for Lynn and Gina and 4 of us cabbed back.
I should be studying RM now but oh wth. Unwell stomachhh is sucky. Read through a lil alr, probably getting up early to read through the rest. G'night.
Sing a sad song just to turn it around
3:04 AM;
I cleared 2 papers today, though wasnt my best, maybe it wasnt even average. Ah wth.
2 more papers, 1 more role-play assess to go. Thinking back Ive absolutely no freaking idea how I survived through the pass 1 month plus of endless and deadly submissions etc etc. But I do Thank God that I pulled it through. Last lap now. So G-O.
Had my share of rest/slacking after I reached home todayy. Watched GG for hours. Now my eyes are tired, I should probably get some rest too since I only had 2hr of sleep ytd.
&Thanks for being so understanding. Really. :)
1:43 AM;
Ive 2 papers tmr and Ive yet to touch the notes yet.
Went to school at like 11am to print mine & Alvin's IJ. Met Eug at lab then we went to submit our IJ tgt(LAST SUBMISSION PLEASE) and bizpark for lunchhh after. Went lib to find Weida cos eug wanted the CS2 notes.
&We got attracted by the game Weida was playing so we requested for mulit players and stayed there to play WORMS HAHA I LIKE &I won the second round cos Eug is dumb he bombed himself. It was damn funny cos he was planning to kill my last surviving worm. That was when he said "watch ah this moment" and started singing "a moment like this~~~" &BOOM! Bad aiming bomb dropped on him and... He died! Walaoeh Weida, Anthony and I laughed like mad. Anthony went "So much for a moment like this" &I went "Yea for a moment LIKE THIS" Hahahah.
Then Eug accompained me to the inter and 72 home while I went to get my thumbdriveee (after losing it for 1 yr) and earphones too (: Oh yea, I really dislike those stares stares from ah bengs just cos I was alone TSK.
27 back to sk, decided to avoid the crowd @ CP today but instead took a long walk home. Blasting music is my way of escape.
It gets really frustrating when I feel mood-less, but it gets me more frustrated when I dont know the reason behind this mood-less feeling. What I can tell you is that, it's pretty much sucky.
*Sighs "I feel so suffocated by everything around me, I cant seem to breathe"
*walk away* "I will come back with an oxygen tank so that you'll have some air"
Hahahaha, ayes thanks (:
6:45 PM;
It's 420AM and Im currently in my living room having some bonding with my cousins!
&the adults are in the room hahahah andddddd it just endedd! So therefore everyone is going home nowww. No more bonding yo. &my contact lenses are still onnn and they are blurring my visionnnn so dryyyyy pls.
Had family dinner with them all just nowww. Ok Im gg to take my contacts offf its freaking irritatingggg. Goodnight!
GO ALL YOU STRESSSS KIDS OUT THERE. YOU CAN DO IT! *Inclusive of myself, submission on Monday.
Because Impossible is Nothing. :D
4:26 AM;
