Cause it dont breakeven... Had APEL and I like my care person. Went for NE talk for his sake if not I'd have ran away like the rest of the kiddos. Client briefing for Sales Mgt in the evening then met Wack for dinner where everyone should be wack. Its 140AM and Im feeling really tired. Class is at 9AM tmr. How VERY early is that? _____ Just came across something and it reminded me of every single lil thing that had happened. Some made me smile, some caused me to frown. &it surprised me how you remember everything so clearly. Some of which I would have never know how you felt if I didnt read it. Scenes replayed through my mind like a flim. It is really heartwarming to see those words, and I appreciate it. Really do. I seem to hear you say, "What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok" _____ I think I need to sleep soon, my throat is hurting damn badly. Another long day starting in few hours time.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Cornflakes ritter sport woo
Monday, April 27, 2009
1 off the list
Sunday, April 26, 2009
What does my future holds?
Friday, April 24, 2009
I dont know how,
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
No mood for anything
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Head under water
Monday, April 20, 2009
School's starting in less than 24 hours, and Ive much stuff left unsettled.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Week 0 Business Orientation is over
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Too much things, too little time. Emo potato.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
How now brown cow QUESTION MARK
Monday, April 13, 2009
Uh 1.2.3.4.5
Sunday, April 12, 2009
When I turn TwenTEEN
Friday, April 10, 2009
HAPPY TWENTEEN BIRTHDAY TO ME :D
Im TwenTEEN but this post is not related to my birthday haww
Thursday, April 9, 2009
FOW/C 09/10: ZETTEN DUA LOVE
Monday, April 6, 2009
Back from FOW
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Drama that only happened on tv,
Hello lil humans, hows your day? I had a long and tiring one.
1:40 AM;
Tuesday: Second day of school, so far so good. I THINK.
Went to catch 17 Again ytd w J, not a fan of Zac Afron at all, but caught it anyway cos there werent much shows to choose from. &im glad that it was pretty good. I like shows which have meanings to it. (: Didnt eat much for dinner cos I felt quite full but had Chippy; one of my craving, thanks(: Oh before that I had rushy lunch w Bao cos he was damn late, tsk. &I went for lecture, woo proud of myself haha.
Had my 1st tutorial lesson with my class, and it was uh bias. &I went toilet and got knocked by that stupid thing. Went vib life booth for a bit and had 3 oreo cheesecake it's damn nice! Jo-an made them! Then went for training. Ouh, I thought training was pretty fun today! Hawhaw. Then dinner with WACK(haha) Sunny's treat, thanks Sunny!
Just cut and painted my nails. Finally had time to do so. Need to get started with my tut soon. & I really need to uploads those photos in my camera soon. Some are quite nice know! Haha. Ok off to do tut, hopefully.
1:44 AM;
YAY MY APPEAL WAS A SUCCESS! IM IN 3M02 :D
Sunday
Came home from Zet picnic and check timetable and wooo (: Thank God and everyone else who have been putting up w my easily irritated temper this week. (: &Thank you who prayed for me. (:
Zet picnic thingy was alright. I like the Bang game, so exciting! But didnt really interact much w the freshies today cause of my menses cramps I didnt feel like talking much the whole day.
Keith was my companion home after mass dinner at some open area. Had mini talks bout TP and all on the way home.
Ive a thousand and one craving now and noone is able to satisfy them now cos all the shops are C.L.O.S.E.D. TSK.
1:47 AM;
On Friday I helped out in Human Wheel Barrow Challenge looking like someone who worked at Escape theme park while Jes looked like she work for Giordano. &together with Jes we did the challenge and we laughed till abs formed on our tummy, rolled on the grass countless of times and tried our bestest to continue each time we laughed-till-we-fall, with 6 people cheering for us at the finishing line hahaha. We were probably the best pair to stall for time luh! It was pure fun seriously. Haven laughed that badly in a long long while. (:
Had my share of sleep on a Saturday. Woke up with aches on my tummy and I wonder if its caused by all that vigorous laughing I had w Jes ytd or was it the wheelbarrow challenge haha. &my cough is not going away. Just as stubborn as me.
Headed for service in the evening and then dinner with the churchies.
Appreciate the talk we had tonight. (:
The sky is filled with many many stars tonight and I like how they are always so beautiful every single time you turn your head up to look at them. Maybe that is why I love stars ayes.
Zetten family day picnic @ECP later. Go away soon mr. stubborn cough.
4:13 AM;
So first week of school is coming to an end, just ONE more day to go.
It haven been that great but it ain't THAT bad either. Although the person-in-charge has yet to call to inform me regarding my appeal case and that's the thing Ive been stressing bout the whole damn week. But ah well, shall see how it goes. Not like I can do anything to make anything change. So lets throw that to the back of my mind.
My mood has been fluctuating damn drastically. One moment high the next down the next stress the next back to normal and on it goes. Im trying hard not to lose myself amist of all the things that are happening.
On Wed; Hockey booth. Bbf&J. Shozen dinner, haha.
Thurs (like an hour and a half ago); I had my first CDS tutorial for a good 3 hours. Bought all the materials needed. &for the 1st time ever, I felt good bout being in a CDS, like it's the right CDS for me. (: My previous 2 CDS was quite ... Anw, its only the 1st lesson so I shall not say things too early. But Im really glad I liked it so far. Oh yes, Cheryl & Alex are in the same CDS class as me its always good to have friends ard in a new environment.
Fire drills practice was, uhm, YA spoiler we were so into our class assignment k. "This is a exercise, exercise, exercise." Headed IKEA for dinner after w the 3.
Tomorrow is going to be a long day. 11am - 9 or 930pm? Cos Ive lec then Im helping out in the human wheel barrow thingy. Least Ive Jes w me ayes!
I dont know why but it seems like Ive alot to think abouttt.
1:40 AM;
TSKKKKK.
I dont know lahhhhhh. Why oh why?
To me, I feel that if anyone wanna know anything they should just text me. Please try not to expect me to text, its like these few days I only reply text I seldom initiate cos of the stupid thinggg that Im going through, 02 please.
&really sorry, I just cant live up to that expectation, for now. Though my reply might come hours later, unless you're lucky enough that I check my inbox. But yea anything just text. Sighhh. I feel so urghhh. It is just me and my principle? Or maybe Im just not who I use to be.
I probably suck even as a friend.
&pleaseeeeeeeee understand that Im not blaming anyone here.
Ah I need to bathe lah, bye.
1:22 AM;
Hi, so 1st day of school didnt go that well. Well, it suck pretty much actually.):
Mood was like urgh the whole day. Thankfully the friends around made it a tad bit better.
Im damnit tired now and I cant sleep cos I still have stuff to do. ):
Tmr seems so packed at night, hockey, zet, bcf all @ ard the same timing. I wish I could split myself into 3. But if my morning dont go well, I think my mood will be down down down. Like how I TSK more than 30 times the whole of today?
&I know that thousand and one photos and proper updates are SUPPOSED to be up but wait till I get over this shit aye?
I know at the end of the day if things doesnt come my way I'll just have to embrace it. But Sigh, easier said than done. Alright hopefully I'll get to dive into bed soon like before 315am?
BCF, tauhway youtiao again soon please?
2:51 AM;
Sigh. Please let it go well tomorrow. PLEASEEE.
1:30 AM;
&
BUSINESS WON THE WAR FOR THE FIFTH TIME! (:
1:01 AM;
Lets see, bio clock went into camp mode today, so I only had 3hours of sleep: 5ish AM - 8ish AM. &I woke up thinking that it was already noon cos I felt damn awake but no it was only EIGHT++ IN THE MORNING. Tossed & turned for an hour to no vaild so I went to watch my Goo Jun Pyo! Chiong 4 episodes and Im done with the drama, happy ending. So yay after all the camps I finally found time for Goo Jun Pyo, but now no more Goo Jun Pyo need to find some new love.
Anyway, it's been 5 days since my Big 20 and I must say I really enjoyed my birthday this year. Thank to all who planned for the mini/big surprises here and there and for the gifts too. This year's gifts are all DAMN LOVE, like really really :D (Proper birthday celebr entry with over flooded photos probably next week when Biz orientation and all are over.) Just wanna say I feel the love, thanks darlings(:
Many things have changed in the past 1 yr, inevitably, people change, and I think I did too. Some good, some bad. Encountered the most horrifying incident that I'd ever imagine in my whole life. Lost some, gained some. I guess thats life? For those who have been with me through it all, cant thank you enough and you know my love for you is like to the max. I shall save the naming cos Im sure yall know who you special people are aye (:
Im thinking of taking a nap now cos I NEED it but looking at the time now, Im afraid I cant wake up in time to meet BCF. So I shall set 2 alarms haha. Heading over to bbf's tonight and Biz orientation tmr wooo. Business will win the war, lets go!
Bring me back to the start
2:53 PM;
Zet April babies(:
Ok no mood to blog suddenly. Ha ha.
Uhhh. Had training today and it was good.
BCF tmr then Biz Orientation on Thurs and Friday which I have to wake up super early for!
Im hungry.
12:50 PM;
Zet celebrated my birthday today @ ECP then to Bao's(cos it rained) Thanks sweethearts (:
Elaborate more next time. I know my entry have been damn short and sweet kind but Im pretty much drained from all the events.
Haven chiong sleep since I came back from FO know.): Because there aint time for me to do so plus seeing the events that are lined up for the week whaaaa no need chiong sleep alr. So open your arms and embrace them Zhao, you can do it!
Photos and everything else soon. SL Tea Party tmr meeting bbf &gdfriend for brunch before that. Omg Im only left with 5hours of sleep IF I SLEEP NOW. But thats just impossible. Gahhhh. Ok goodnight to you who's reading this.
2:43 AM;
So far the celebrations planned for my birthday by the many sweethearts are damn love :D You know who you are, SUPER LOVE YOU ALL PLEASE. TO THE MAX MAX MAX MAX.
&sorry I know I haven reply to all the birthday texts, give me some time k! (:
Updates on my different birthday celebrations soon. Im too tired to go into details now. But I just wanna say, I felt the love from my most loveliest friends (:
1:05 AM;
11:53 PM;
FAs: To me, Zetten have the best FAs anyone can find. Geraldine's dance is classic and when she's high its like damn hilarious. Her words are funny yet super encouraging the GAP thingy (: I'll remember Chris for the debrief night whereby he walked around to fan us GLs wha damn love! During carnival games, totally got poured on with dirty water all for Zetten. Where to find such lovely FAs? ZETTEN(: Because we have dua love.
YEAR 3s: THANK YOU SO MUCH. You guys really motivated me to be a better GLs with those scoldings, words of encouragements to how you guys put words into actions and set a example for us to look up to. I hope I'll be able to pass down what Ive learn from you guys to the next batch of GLs. Zetten won the champion title for your last FO Year 3s! Love you all long time (:
Fellow GLs+HGL : Thanks for highing with me and having to hear my whining and all hahahah. For the support in any and every way each of you have given me. For the fun, joy, laughters and tears. You guys are the love already. We motivate each other from time to time. Cried like mad together when the emcee crowned Champion to Zetten. Couldnt have done this without you all. DUA LOVE.
Zetten Freshies: Seriously, this batch of freshies is the most zai already. You guys are the sweetest, zai-est, bestest anyone can get. When Im tired I look at you all and thought to myself that for you all I have to do it (and of cos for my fellow lovely Year 3s and GLs and HGL and FAs lah) Glad to have each one of you as my freshies though I might not remember your names cos there are seriously too many of you! But if you smile at me, I'll smile back for sure. Just call, ZHAO hahaha(: Love you all!
SEE YOU ALL ON SATURDAY (:
2:49 AM;
FOW/C WAS A BLAST! ZETTEN GOT 2ND FOR FOW AND FOR FOC WE EMERGED 1ST! :D &We got 1st for ALL 3 DAYS. LEGEND PLEASE. ZAI or ZAI? Uhh ZAI :D
I cried like a baby on the last day after results was released. I was like still tearing at the 1st part of mass dance, unglam pls.
During debrief I cried again hahahha and I was the only one crying. Everyone scold me pls, they were like "Zhao! You damn slow eh! Everyone finish crying already then you start!" Farhan went "She crying for FOW day 3" Hahahha walao thats 3 days slow and Im not so slow ok.
I couldnt stop crying. I think it was the mixed feelings of what truma I went through right before FO to how I managed to stay throughout and overcomed certain fears of mine, Im really glad I did went to FO. Plus performing my bestest, the friends I made in Zetten, the freshies who became friends, the leaving of my beloved Year 3s who guided us through, the love for my FAs, the effort I saw our most zai-est freshies from both FOW/C put in, the pride of being a Zetten GL and you know I can continue on and on. Thats why you cant blame me for crying so muchhh.
My tears started flowing like mad after the Year 3s short speech and when we did the "Thats not my name cheer."
Its like ZETTEN is my name. Proud to be in Zetten.
The cheer goes....
They call us Holqa
They call us Nexo
They call us Reliez
They call us Rinku
Thats not our name(x4)
We are from Zetten
Z.A.I Zetten
The dua love Zetten
Always the same
This is out name (x4)
I love Z.A.I Zetten. Zetten And I. (:
Im having withdrawal symptoms from camp now ):
On a totally random fact; IM TURNING TWENTEEN IN 15 MINS.
DUA EX birthday list which is just for fun cos noone will actually get me those cos they are all overpriced for birthday gift hahah but I'll just write it down anyway and maybe save up myself hahahahha.
-PSP
-Nikon D90 (HAHA Clique almost killed me)
-That crumpler
-That Ipod
-That photo printer
Ok, just kidding! :D -Poke own bubble. Enough of dreams haha, I'll love anything anyone of you give lah. It's the love yo (: Seriously, honestly I dont expect much gifts this year, spending time with my dearest friends counts the most. Uh but I can tell you, I like things associated with stars or rainbows or stripes or hearts or grey or yellow or red or lime green or neon/hot pink. Ok hahaha.
Update the rest in another entry! LOVE YOU ALL!
11:45 PM;
Other than the phobia of blue/white lights(bbf change your light colour!), I had my share of fun @ FOW.
Putting my fear of strangers aside and gave my all for the 3 days. Im glad I did. Its like for the first time when being asked, "How do you think of your own performance?" I put a thumb up (:
From 4th to 2nd, it really shows something. Zetten is dua love. We've dua love freshies too! They're damn zai. The moment the final result was released, woahhh we all jumped off our seat and scream like mad and jump and more scream and continuous jumping and tight hugs and tears and joy.
I was telling someone(dont rmb who), "If anyone were to take a photo of us then, he would probably get a damn perfect jumpshot with all of our feet off the ground" (: Thats how similar we felt, how high and long we jumped, how happy we were.
Having a 2nd placing brought most of the GLs to tears; the thought of the effort and hardwork being put in and seeing how our freshies grow, from quiet and shy to being so rarh and zai, woah totally beyond words. (:
Im happy with 2nd, cos I know I put in my all and that the freshies enjoyed themselves (:
I wanna thank the year 3s, FAs and HGL for teaching and guilding us along the way through these 3 days. I really hope each individual GL will put in their best for FOC(if you haven in FOW) and support one another throughout.
WE'LL BE STANDING AND CHIONGING TOGETHER FOR THE NEXT 3 DAYS. FOC, LETS GO ZET. (:
1:19 AM;
As most of you might have already known, I met a psychotic who wanted to use electric current from his stun gun to make me knock out and I dont have to elaborate what he plans to do next. For a start, stun gun are not sold in Sg and only the polices have it.
This fateful misfortune happened to me on Sunday 9plus PM (A time which seems so safe to me for 19 yrs of my life), I was lucky enough to escape with my constant loud screaming and with the last bit of whatever strength I could force myself to use during the damn long struggle and continuous attacks of torturous electric current..
Thank God he was stupid enough not to attack me in the lift and that he was dumb enough not to know how to use the stun gun cos Ive injuries all over caused by the electric current and he didnt zap on the vital point which would make me knock out. I really cant imagine if I really knock out.
Im still damn traumatized by the incident and I think it'll take quite some time for me to get over it. I hope I can get over it. Nobody will know how I feel right now cos Im the only one that went through the whole thing and I hate sengkang pretty much now, I thought Singapore was supposed to be safe. Pray hard that the person I identified on Monday was really that attacker.
All the police officers who took my statement were damn shock that he has a stun gun. 1st case in Sg I guess, and I am the 1st victim.
Ive phobia of alot of stuff now. &it sucks damn terribly.
Girls, please be careful when you go home alone, get someone to fetch you up. Sometimes its really needed.
Dear Lord, please heal me, mentally & emotionally, inside out. Let the whole incident to stop replaying in my mind 24/7. Help me to overcome all my fears. Amen.
This is so not a April Fool's joke. I'll be more than happy to say "happy april's fool!" At the end of the day but, it's for real.
5:55 PM;
